angel__fuck

Wed, 24 May 2006 08:16:34 GMT

i got my jacket today. it makes me excited.

it is a miss piggy one, yes.

Mon, 22 May 2006 11:26:11 GMT

I dont really like it, ot find it funny when people talk about anorexia or bulimia.

Its not a thing we plan. It just happens. It may be from an inncident that has happened, or pretty much any other reason.
Your not going to be happier. Even how much you think you are.

I dont no, it just irritates me real bad. If you wanna be like that, you need a big fucking kick in the head. serious.

Plus ill hate you.

Thu, 11 May 2006 04:34:18 GMT

i got a haircut yesterday. and it was free :)

pic chaa

it looks prety much the same, but different? i dont no. Also, dont mind my sexual biolage top. im about to go to work.

AND, if you had a chance to go in a hot air balloon, would you?

Sun, 07 May 2006 08:37:52 GMT

~~Your not even half the person you lie to be~~

She know's whats coming. And nothing ever seems perfect. But she jusrt keeps on pushing. Pushing until she is empty. Completely empty.
Her throat is bleeding and her veins are out. She hides the evidence, but it always gets found. We are going to stop this. Stop everything.

some one have a bong with me wednesday. please?

Wed, 03 May 2006 07:47:15 GMT

look at her blood shot eyes,
and the tiny veins in her skin.
as the tears are falling,
you know she's wearing thin.
no one seems to say anything,
but she always wishes she was dead.
you have made yourself so distant,
and you dont listen to anything thats said.
but one day you will regret all of this.

but we dont care. we dont think.

Sun, 09 Apr 2006 00:45:58 GMT

i havent updated lately. not at all. sheesh. thought i might, and while im at it add some pics aswell. naked. haha. i have finished my applications for SG. i have a profile set up already, all i need is to send in some photoshoots, or they shall get a photographer for me i need.

Wed, 22 Feb 2006 04:29:44 GMT

and in no time, those jeans are gonna be back on my legs.

Fri, 17 Feb 2006 01:53:45 GMT

i dyed my hair last nite. its red and blaaaaachhk.
i can smell toast.
im on a new diet. haha. as always. but this time im sticking to it. yeah.

i think i might post some ollld old photos, just for something to look at. if your bored.

renee and i on her 18th birthday!! hehe

my lover boy brett and i probly fagging it up, at coles at school.


me and my best friend cristina, ive known her since i was like born?           Trent and i on like last school day?

moreeeeeee

                  I LOVE THIS PIC!!! :D:D:D
i juts like the lighting in this photooo

haha it looks like i have a stump for an arm, plus we are drunk.

  tova is hotttt. like really hot.
sexy, sexy people. i wish i could see them more. lots more :(

we all pull bad faces, but i think this one beats them all....                                at my mums 40th!!! hurrrrrrr

yeah that might do..... quite a bit of a post. i tried to do that LJ cut shit, but i dunno if it worked properly...oh vell.

Fri, 03 Feb 2006 10:00:47 GMT

my life is gay

Tue, 17 Jan 2006 06:06:15 GMT

so its like my 18th birthday soon. any one wanna come out for some fun ;)

Tue, 17 Jan 2006 06:02:37 GMT

yeah saw my crush. he was buying a hot dog. id like his hot dog.

Tue, 17 Jan 2006 06:02:10 GMT

a tub of shake. a box of replacements. and another box of laxatives.

should keep me going for a couple of days? maybe?

Mon, 16 Jan 2006 11:20:03 GMT

so fucked off. at people. at myself. at fucking everything.
gonna stop everything. gonna start again.
be like i was before. i dont care what you say. but i can see it happening. its already happening.
sometimes i wonder why i try to be friendly? maybe its just the way i am. but from now on, im gonna fucking tell you how i think. how i feel.

but on a better note, me and mum are having joints soon. lets just hope i dont get the munchies. other wise im back off sticking fingers down holes, and a handfull of laxatives. sounds a bit like everyday really. not much has changed. but kinda like has?

get paid tomorrow. getting pills and coffee. lets hope my crush is working. other wise ill be gettin fat.

fuck i suck.

she found diet pills and yesterdays meals. too bad pills are shit and dont work. but hey, they taste like grass.

gym tomorrow for 4 hours. *gets excited*

natural yoghurt is sour. but comes up well. bread is the devil. broccolli is chunky. my boobs are growing. i need to fag it up. i need to stop. i need to start. i need to hurt. i need to be happy?

sorry, no can do.

Mon, 16 Jan 2006 05:42:03 GMT

wow. i want a relationship this hot.

Thu, 12 Jan 2006 11:37:59 GMT

ugh. im refusing. yep. goodbye me. goodbye everything. im gonna make this happen once again. and i dont give a fuck what anyone says. because everything is bad. disgusting. dead.

Wed, 11 Jan 2006 12:24:03 GMT

Evan tried to touch my vagina today. haha. mmm.

Fri, 23 Dec 2005 09:04:23 GMT

women who live with Bulimia seek out binge and purge episodes -- they will eat a large quantity of food in a relatively short period of time and then use behaviors such as taking laxatives or self-induced vomiting -- because they feel overwhelmed in coping with their emotions, or in order to punish themselves for something they feel they should unrealistically blame themselves for. This can be in direct relation to how they feel about themselves, or how they feel over a particular event or series of events in their lives. Those suffering with Bulimia may seek episodes of binging and purging to avoid and let out feelings of anger, depression, stress or anxiety.

( in one sitting she ate footlong subs, pizza, 5 ice creams, 6 muffins, and a a loaf of bread )

women suffering Bulimia are usually aware they have an eating disorder. Fascinated by food they sometimes buy magazines and cook-books to read recipes, and enjoy discussing dieting issues.

( when she opens her cupboard, she falls upon all the stolen cookbooks she now owns )

Some of the behavioral signs can be: Recurring episodes of rapid food consumption followed by tremendous guilt and purging (laxatives or self-induced vomiting), a feeling of lacking control over his or her eating behaviors, regularly engaging in stringent diet plans and exercise, the misuse of laxatives, diuretics, and/or diet pills and a persistent concern with body image can all be warning signs someone is suffering with Bulimia.

( she tells her parents that she is meeting with her friends, but she really goes to the gym to work out as hard as she can )

It is not uncommon for a man or woman suffering with Bulimia to take diet pills in an attempt to keep from binging, or to use diuretics to try to lose weight. A sufferer will often hide or "store" food for later binges, will often eat secretly and can have large fluctuations in their weight.

( she spends her pay on fat blaster, swallows them like lollies, and beside her bed lays bags full of empty cereal boxes and ice cream containers )

"... I want to free myself... and find security in my tears. How can I touch my innerself and know of the existence... when this painful essence has beaten me down?... "

Tue, 13 Dec 2005 01:23:43 GMT

i hope you had a great 18th tameeeh!! i love you heaps!!

oh zee memorieeees

HANSON!!!! Australia Day...haha trampoline and passion pop :/

PRETZEL FAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAASHE! ....what can i say <3

Nawh can you feel the hotness

It was heaps good to see you and everyone again <3

Kate it has beeen waaaay too long since ive seen you. Aswell as Rose <3 Tova i hope the bushes treated you well while you......watered them..haha....Anita you are damn fine lady...haha renee and dayna..lets hope that bbq sauce is treating you well. LOL.

i have the biggest crush on a boy. OH. i met up with him saturday night and we ran thru sprinklers, laughed at my belly (baby bump), threw spiders on eachother, etc etc. it was nice :)

eeep, christmas shopping today!

Mon, 05 Dec 2005 11:08:15 GMT

eeeep!! formal photos!!!!!!!

me and shelly. yes i was already drunk off passion pop and goon. please dont look at my face.

yeah so im blinking...

you only get 2!!!!

Thu, 01 Dec 2005 04:21:18 GMT

the formal was better than i expected.

went and picked up jonny, he was looking mighty fine in his suit;) then i got ready and we headed off to michelles house.
drank some passion pop and goon, got photos, and by the time the minder bus came, we were all trashed.
on the way there, we got the driver to stop off at a bottlo, and we got more passion pop and goon. :)
i had to pee HEAPS bad. when we got there more photos were taken. food came, awards were done, then there was lots of dancing!!!! i ran to the toilet and i kicked my ankle and cut it heaps bad. it hurt like fuck.

but the best part of the night was that i got to kiss my crush <3

there was a big fat lizard on my car and i shit myself.

today i ate a tub of ice cream and i couldnt move. when i tried to move, i threw up. lots. and everywhere. eww.

Tue, 29 Nov 2005 07:42:14 GMT

eeep formal tomorrow!! im heaps excited. went and saw jonnys suit yesterday :) its pretty.
got my nails done today and getting zee hair done tomorrow.

im off to body combat tonight. i gotta work off my ice cream gut. i ate a whole tub of it for dinner last night. and half of one today. fuck. celery for me tomorrow...

and yes. i have a new crush. i get excited when i see him online, and when he messages me, it some how makes my day 100% better. I get all nervous when i see him, and when he hugs me, i go all weak and fuzzy.

but the best bit is that, he likes me as well <3

plus my buttocks is peeling from the time i got heaps burnt. heaps attractive i know.

Mon, 28 Nov 2005 09:24:09 GMT

*crush*

Fri, 25 Nov 2005 09:50:28 GMT

today was spent with mum. i got my formal dress, shoes and hand bag. too bad the hand bag cost more than the dress, but its pretty.

the dress is white, and it makes me looked tanned to im happy. it has lots of little diamonties ( how ever the fuck u spell it) down the front and the way im explaing makes it sound like a piece of shit, but its really, really cute. the shoes are mighty sexy.

i went and bought hair dye before. the lady made me cry. i fucking hate people who are rude, and cant keep their fucking mouth shut. stupid whore. im sorry if i fucking starved for half a year and now that im eating, and maybe eating too much at one time makes my stomach pop out a bit. and im sorry to dissapoint you, im not fucking pregnant. things like this make me want to do stupid things. but im not, coz im stronger and now smarter than that. it was hell. and plus, food is the best thing ever.

but i hope u fall down the stairs lady and seriously hurt yourself.

Wed, 23 Nov 2005 09:42:11 GMT

ive been feeling alot of hate towards myself and others lately. days are becoming the same thing over and over.

i hate to say it but 2 bad habits are coming back to me. and this isnt a good thing, to other people. but to me, i dont really care if they're back.

i wish that one person would go away...forever. they dont trust me, believe anything i say,doesnt make me feel good about myself, puts words into my mouth, etc etc. but oh well, lifes tough i guess.

this year has gone mighty fast, and yeah it was hard but i managed to wriggle my way through. when i look back it was the hardest year of my life. not just because of school, but with everything else.

oh, i have a date to the formal <3

Sun, 13 Nov 2005 01:10:41 GMT

some stupid fucking asian asked me if i was pregnant today. that makes me feel so fucking good :(

another reason i hate asians